TOPIC 5: SOON TO BE MOTHER BUT NOT READY!?!

  Why do young or older woman have kids when they not really ready? Is it to feel special? to feel love? or they really still do believe they can keep their baby daddy? After all the experience they went through probably with their first or maybe being there with their friend or even witnessing their mom single parent? Most important if they are not ready why not have an aboration if they going to kill them their selves? I always wonder that.

    First reason I believe is that want to feel love because they never felt a love so strong and so unconditional. They usually didn't have parent that show them love and care. They was probably in foster care and never had a good influence. But most of the time they want to think they can keep a family together by having a baby. It can either keep ya'll closer or completely tire families apart. I just feel bad that they go through for so much but in the end it ends up being worst then it was from the beginning. Especially when they already had their first child it see it didn't change for the fist baby daddy then why go through more drama? It's not even worth it. But hey sometimes it does. That a risk you'll have to take but I still don't understand.

    Single parent are hard but sometimes I don't feel bad when you know from the start the dad didn't want a kid or your relationship wasn't good to begin with. Why would you think it will make it better. It probably make the man or woman a better person but not a better relationship. When you grow up in a single parent home you would think that's not the life I want. I know that's how I think. I saw my mom struggle, living in the system and treated me and me sister awesome but she was lonely and depress. Why would anyone want to live like that. I don't understand why girls don't want to strive for excellence and better themselves and give a child the best of the best? that's so confusing to me. Well I guess everyone had problems.

    Lastly, I strongly believe deep down if you know for a fact you're not ready why not aborant the unborn child. Why girls have a baby then realize they were right the whole time about not being ready and realize your life is over and you have to think of another life before yours. And they get stressed out and end up killing their own child. Or seeing that things haven't change between you and the baby daddy and end up hating the kid. I strongly believe that every pregnant woman should to mentally, physically and emotion evaluating before they choose for sure they want the kid. Because most of the time it for the wrong reason and ruining their own lives or they end up being an unfit mother and ruining their child lives. NO CHILDREN ASK to be born and have a horrible life.

    Everyone should grow up and make the right decision. In the end of the day, its your life not mines. No one should play or bring a life into this world for the wrong reasons. I wish people would be considerate of people feelings and think about would my child be happy if I bring them to this world when I'm still not good and comfortable with myself? It's a big life change decision something you can't not turn back. It for life so make it right!

Entry 4:The UNforgettable Curise: Point of view of Jayme

I woke up super excited. I haven't slepted I have been with my boyfriend and he's so annoying. So today, today! is the day I can excape from this drama with my jealous boyfriend,hes so mad cause he knows I'm old enough to drink and he knows I get so drunk ,espcially when I'm going to be thousand miles away from him. Oh lord,I just need a drink and to bath in the sun. My frist curise and I'm going with my cousin and she's super cool, the only thing she has a boyfriend so I hope she don't act home sick cause of him. I'm also going with my aunt and her cousin.She pretty annoying but I hope she calm down and loosen up. She's definity not my choice of aunt to go with but whatever makes this trip cheaper. Just the thought of going to New Mexico,Aruba and Cayman Island hey!!! black boys!!! Omg I can't wait. Since I broke night I might as well stay awake and fall asleep on the air plane. I'm wearing my bright orange dress, something comfy for the plane ride and it looks awesome on me. Ugh the only thing is that my boyfriend is giving my cousin and I a ride to the Logan airport so he's just going to be even more mad seeing me in my pretty dress but I'll deal with it cause after this I'm gone for seven days and I don't want to speak to no one at all. I need this trip, I been stress with my boyrfiend and school so finally some peace and quite.

My boyfriend picked me up so annoyed after couples of hours of just seeing him. But I'm so excited to go pick up my cousin. I can't wait to see her pretty face something else besides my boyfriends scurffy face. I look good and smell good like babyoil. I hope this ride goes really fast I just want to arrive at the airport already,well atleast my cousin will make this ride interesting with listening to our songs. Hey we finally picked up my cousin her face is compeltely priceless, the amount of joy and her pretty shiny hazel eyes and her smile is big and white as crest whitten tooth paste cause believe me she never smiles even though she knows she has a beautiful smile that brights up everybody day.Did I mention she look beautiful! Yes, I'm so happy I can scream so loud but lets not make my boyfriend anymore mad, hahaaa! I'm jumping for joy, this is going to be the best trip. I wonder how the ship is going to look and the food? I love food. I'm breaking my diet all the way. We got to the airport finally wasn't too bad but the flight there was so long we had to stop by florida. I haven't felt peace and joy until I felt the heat of florida smacked me in the face. The biggest inner joy and knowing this is going to be a great trip.

Wow after hours of waiting for a ride to the ship and going through the whole step of taken pictures and getting Id for the ship. Its beautiful, it's jaw dropping,felt so awesome to actully finally be here.The windows that you can see to the ocean,see through floors,the fresh new smell of clean vaccum rugs,the water fountain in the middle of the floor,it felt like I was in titanic just hope we don't drown. I just want to see what my room looks like?We walked to room 512, it small of course and four girls staying in this room for seven days is pretty intense. Hope we all get along. The coolest feeling knowing you're in a ship and you go to sleep and wake up hearing the ocean and the only window we have i the room you can see into the ocean. That's a dream come true well atleast to me. But looking at it makes me sea sick ,well I guess I have to drink so I can balance it out right?! hahaaa... Im so excited and I should be taken a nap but all I can think of is eating,drinking,swimming,the spa,the guys and by the way good looking guys not scurffy face looking guys, I lefted that at home. I layed down for a mintue to take all this in. Am I really on a ship? Am I really sleeping and waking up in the middle of different countries everyday? Am I really thousands miles away from home?

Well its already dinner time and we have to dress up. I'm wearing my first cocktail dress ,wearing all white and cream color heels, why not it's summer and I already had a little color by laying out in the sun for alittle. As walked into the dinner area ,it was beautiful with lights and the tables all white,very classy. The first day was very long and I'm so ready for bed tomorrow is the day we will be going to New Mexico and I'm swimming with the Dolphins. I woke up with the sound of the sailor saying"all aboard we have arrived to New Mexico, please have your boarding pass at all times and passport please get dress and be out the ship in two hours and please be back on time after your activity otherwise you will be lefted behind. Thanks" I jumped off the top bunk and got dress as soon as possible.We got off the ship I never thought I would ever be in Mexico. It was super hot but can't complain I rather the sun than the rain. We got to the Dolphins site and of course I'm taken the most pictures, I have to show my friends and family back home I was having an awesome time. My cousin was so happy this was one of her dreams to swim with dolphins. I'm so overwhelmed with joy! I can cry. It was so interesting touching the dolphins, they were sweet and soft. But my aunt was going crazy which I didn't understand cause she knew what activity we chosen. So she was annoying kind of spoiling my time but the dolphins was amazing it made forget what and why my aunt was acting crazy. She was so embrassing. But oh well! But when we got back to the ship it was sad cause it felt like it went by so fast. I wish I can swim with them forever. It was an amazing experience. Over all out of the whole experience Cayman Islands was beautiful, the crystal clear water and Arbua was horrible but very colorful. I had an amazing time bathing in the sun and get darker then what I already am. My cousin makes fun of me. Cause all I wanted to do is lay in the sun. I didn't want to really club cause the guys was horrible looking and the music was oldies music. But what I really wanted to do is relax in the sun. Its peaceful for me, I didn't even want to go swimming. I was having the time of my life but my cousin and aunt in the other hand was making it horrible for me. My aunt was acting like a grandmother and complain every five seconds and my cousin was so home sick and bored. I felt bad but not really, we all came with a purpose and my purpose was to relax, get away from my annoying boyfriend and have a peace of mind. So when my cousin was acting like a baby crying and looking down the whole time and didn't enjoy much of it at all. I choose to make my money worth while and I enjoys every second of killing my skin with the sun.

I definitely agree with my cousin though. I wish my cousin was a little older and was able to drink. We should have looked into the curise package and look at the age difference cause it was full of edlerly people and my intentions was to get away from my boyfriend enjoy the guys on the boat but that didn't happen. So it was a lesson learn and most of all don't come with old people or older people acting like grandmothers. The food wasn't all that good and the only favored drinks I had was alcohol, no soda at all and I love my code red mountain dew soda. So seven days without it was driving me crazy alittle. But besides that I had a realxing time.

 

BENEFIT& I HATE DIETS!!

I wonder why people say diet just sucks. I thought its always about just eating three meals but that definitely not true. Number 1 you must eat healthy,exercise and it very expensive. Living healthy and looking good cost you time and energy and most important money.

Eating healthy is so boring and it makes life boring. Dry salads,nuts,fruits and vegetables. Does any of that sound good? NOPE!! Doesn't nachos,fries and chicken wings make life seems much fun! Well eating healthy is the better option.Its better for your life. It helps you in the long run.

Does any one get excited about after a long day at work to go and WORKOUT? Running,sweating,changing your clothes then take a shower and wash your hair after it looked awesome! cause it got wet cause of working out. Its the wrose but it makes you look good and build up your stamina. and gives you more energy.

Lastly being ina diet is so expensive its crazy. Fruits and vegetables you have to eat within 1week so basically you needs to go shopping weekly for boring healthy fruits and vegetables. The wrose things ever is eating something you're not in the mood for, but once again its good for your life and healthy for your body. I just hate diets.


In the end of the day as much as I hate!!! diets!!! it really benefits you in the long run. It makes you live longer and you don't have to worry about diseases such as diabetes,high blood pressure or high cholesterol.
It sucks but try eating healthier and a better way takes you a long way on life.

How can reading benefit you??

I always wonder why people would say reading benefits you in life. When I was little, I use to think that sound dumb. But its true , reading is useful in a many ways. Such as you read to relax you and escape from the real world. It educates you in a lot of ways and it makes you more cautions in different aspect of your life.

Its relaxing when you can just read and it takes your mind into a different image of life. You get to escape with the story instead of living in your situation. It makes you mind think and see things so much different and fun. Its like an adventure. You could be stress and it makes you think of the story itself instead of life. You can sit back and enjoy the story.

When you need to learn something,what you do? You can read about it. You can read books from school,directions to fix somethings and it also teach you new vocabulary. I know in order to educate yourself you have to read what the teacher is telling you to read. You need to read to educates and grow your way of seeing and thinking.

Lastly reading makes you use your thinking cap by reading what you need to and not to do. Like using transportation. Reading your way out what stores or credit cards try to trap you from. It makes you more alert and wise. You have to read text,emails and messages, to let you know whats going on in life. How to get around in life.

Reading can always be useful in so many others way but those are my main three facts. People should always read out of school and don't look at it such a burden. Its fun,interesting,educating. I love reading especially when its interesting.

Topic ONE

   Thinking lots of thoughts but wondering how can I express them all at ONCE?!?.. I know why not write to have a freedom of letting go. There's many ways to express things all at once without having to remember everything and many reason why writing is so important so you don't have anxiety about forgetting what was important to you. I will express my three important facts why writing your thought down is useful to your life.

  First fact why writing be useful for you not only when you in school. You can write things that no one has to know and reason with you or even ask why you're thinking those thoughts. There are so many times you feel like am I really thinking this and why?..When you write it down it's a way of opening your mind into paper. Seeing it and writing down why you feel a certain way can also make you see it in a better way,if that makes sense. Sometimes when you have your mind full of so many things it helps you feel like your mind can breathe and it bring clarity.

  Second don't you feel like when you write things down no one can interrupt what you're thinking and want to say before you forget because you're both are having a conversation? It's so better to speak your mind and feelings without showing facial expression so no one can take it the wrong way. Some people get real emotional and start crying and can't get the words out but when you write it down, you can write as much as you want and cry in the same time. You can also paint a picture of how you're feeling if you can't express it verbally. I know writing things down is better for me,I get stuck in words and break down easily. Yes, I'm very sensitive but once I write things down I can say as much as I want without getting stuck. And you have no choice but to read what and try to understand how I feel.

   Last reason, most important. You have the FREEDOM to forget and confidence you didn't forget because you KNOW you wrote it down. There penalty of times I wish I wrote somethings down without feeling like I have the burden to remember and it also causes more stress in your mind. Your mind can remember and hold so much information before the other thought takes over. You have the freedom to have other thoughts come to pass cause you know for a fact you won't forget what was probably most important because you wrote it down. It also keeps you organize.

   Those are my threes main facts I believe how writing can be so useful to your life and it doesn't always have to be because of school. Those three facts helps me clear my mind and have peace that I got everything in control by writing it all down. So I can move on with my life and knowing everything is either getting done or I got it done all because I remember by looking at it because I wrote it all down.